From Game to Pain

At first it was just a game. So I played. Bringing out the wild side of me (not that wild, huh). Knowing this guy for almost half of my life. Knowing what he’s capable of. I never thought he’d seriously love me. Even though were worlds apart. But him, coming back just to see me and tell me words that melted my frozen heart, man it really did struck me. But still I refused him. So he went back. Months and months of chatting, calling and texting made him more special to me. He’s so damn persistent! I refused him for some major reasons: he’s married (though they separated 4 years ago, but not legally), i don’t want to be like my ex (other man) and he has a girlfriend (and the girlfriend is my neighbor)! So there! I tried to avoid him. And it didn’t work. So the game continued, without me knowing that I was falling. I miss you and I love you were always said in the middle of the conversation. But no commitment! Until he asked me if I can be his girlfriend out of the flirting situation and clumsiness self, I blurted out the word “Yes.” And there I am now an official “OTHER WOMAN”. I don’t have the body and face like Anne Curtis’ but I know I have something beautiful in me. Two weeks of chatting and texting and calling, two weeks of feeling special, cared and loved (of course) ended! I ended it!. I just can’t take the fact the he has a girlfriend and I am hurting her without her knowing. I don’t want to be a damn bitch and I don’t want to deeply fall inlove with him that’s why I decided to end what we have. It kills me but it is the right and best thing to do. Having fallen in love with him through that time, Yes, I am hurting. Getting my heart broken for the second time! Now I am picking up the pieces again. His pleading and being persistent to not ending the relationship is what makes it more harder for me to get out from the game.  I started the game but then I ended up as a loser. From playing a game to ending up in pain!

 Game Over!

(Source: masmalditako)